You'll always see my hands open. I care. I wait. I receive.

Dating addicts was my thing, except I had NO idea that was a thing.

See I thought I had a choice, but I didn't.

Only once I started healingm did I see how I was so sick...

but even super successful (2 Degrees, Straight A's, Lots of Money, High Paying Job, Owning My Own Home), at 26,

sickness is silent until surfaced.

Through the grace of G-d, I realized...my sickness was not able to be seen,

but very much existed indeed.

See, I was an addict, a fiend.

I craved everything and everyone to be proud of me, but me.

I needed to be noticed not seen.

and I chased, so often, men who wouldn't see.

Focused on themselves, they couldn't see

So I was forced to wake up and study, study ....study

"What caused two people to choose each other & be happy,

When most people choose, and end up divorced & sappy?"

Two degrees, hundreds of thousands of dollars later, hundreds of hours in the "rooms" I learned.

Because I became obsessed, I became an expert.

I rewired my brain, body, cells, beliefs....

I learned what love is and how to love my self, brain, body

and became a new me.

I am HAPPILY MARRIED to a sweet,

stable, sober man with my epic kids, Moon & Evie.

And that is how you change, nay transform, sickness into being healthy.